I know that people have different primary ways to spend time in relationship with God, as described in a book I’ve been reading (Sacred Pathways, by Gary Thomas). Some feel His presence more in nature, some are energized by “quiet time” spent in study of scripture and prayer… Well, I’ve discovered over the last year or so, that it’s helpful for me to spend time in study of scripture and journal my insights or prayers. It’s something I’ve done in fits and spurts (mainly because it seems I’m challenged at maintaining ANYTHING for a length of time more than a week or two), but it’s definitely a habit I need to cement in my life.
I took some time this evening and read back through old entries and reflected on what I’ve been learning lately and wrote this entry…
Wow, it has been a LONG time… But reading back through, I see it’s all in YOUR time. Even without my cooperation in this time of prayer & your word through this journal, you’ve been speaking to my heart in many ways.
And the sum of it all?
Prayer. Relationship. Love.
Being intentional in what I do.
Forgiving. Both others and myself.
Understanding that it takes time for the seeds of your wisdom to grow, both in my life and in the lives of the people I love.
And so I pray. Over and over. Because its what Jesus said to do. Even if I haven’t fully wrapped my brain around what that means to an all-knowing, omnipotent God, it’s enough to know that it’s what I’m supposed to do.
Thanks for never giving up on me, even though I’m broken and incomplete. The least I can do is return the favor for the broken and incomplete people I love.
I love you, God.
So I’m not planning on beating myself up for taking so long to figure things out (again). And I know I won’t be perfect in my commitment to study and journal. But I’m going to try… And forgive myself when I mess up. And then extend that same forgiveness to others as I’m empowered by the spirit of the awesome God I serve to do things far beyond my strength and capability.
Amen to that! 🙂